Ursula

My 3 year old grandaughter who I absolutely adore told her mom and aunt (when she saw Ursula on tv) "there is Nana when she is mean to Ariel and takes her voice away". Ok, seriously? I didn't realize i looked that bad. but i do! I seriously resemble her and for a 3 year old to make that connection... well.. WOW. mortifying! Made me cry. but I didn't let anyone see me. I wouldn't want to hurt poor Jaci's feelings for thinking Ilook like Ursula. Yes, I must change.

That's me. the big fat fatty sitting in the grey shirt. although I was having a good time... i was actually 'sitting' in my chair instead of standing up by the guy with the great abs! haha (i don't know him...he was just showing me that he had better abs then the situation) but the fact remains... i was toooooo fat to even get my lard butt out of the chair! ugh. well..that is me.... and hopefully we will see a better me in a couple of months.

5 good reasons...

5 good reasons to lose weight that is! I thought I'd take a little advice from Lucy VanPelt... reason 1...Mindy, reason 2....Vanessa, reason 3.... Caroline, reason 4.... Jaci , and reason 5...mom and dad. (picture me saying each reason as I begin to lower each finger into a fist position... after i hit number 5 i have a fist which i raise in the air and say... 5 GOOD REASONS!)

I am extremely overweight and not happy. I have a great job, although i think that might be one reason why i'm unhappy... i do full time work yet i'm paid only half pay... i believe that is due to my weight. my brother once said... "look at you...you must not care about yourself at all" and maybe that is what my employer thinks as well.

Well.. i have knews for them.. I DO CARE! I have the 3 most wonderful daughter in the world and a gorgeous little granddaughter. I want to LIVE and quit just "being". I know that doesn't make sense, but it would if you were fat...then you would understand.

well.... let's hope this blog works and that no one else ever finds it online! how embarrassing for me! first day and day two of my diet. i'd post my weight but i'm too embarrassed ... soon though.