New Years Eve 2013

I haven't written my New Years resolutions yet.  Don't know if I will.   I don't need a on time resolution, I need a lifetime plan.  My plan is to spend more time with family and not take one day for granted.  Focus on being positive and make God my highest priority.  Yes, I think I like this idea!
     Went and saw Frozen with Jaci and Vanessa.   Jaci face timed me to invite me.  That little girl has such a huge piece of my heart!   Maybe today we can go see Walking With Dinosaurs!   Louden....he has got to be the happiest little boy ever!  I love how he runs to open th door when I come over. Love those two precious babies!
      Mindy face timed me last night!  Can't wait to hold her baby!  She and John will be awesome parents!
       Caroline works tonight...happy because then she has to not drink! Ha.  I wonder if I get to babysit tonight!   Hope so!
     Well today I need to:
            * return stuff to Walmart
            * paint bottom cabinet
           * spend time with family!

Until. 2014.....be safe, healthy, and happy!!!
Lucy

12-28-2013

I actually got some things accomplished today!  Got all the Christmas decorations down and boxed.  Carried a couple downstairs.  Threw out the trash. Bagged up all of my containers to take to the thrift shop.  Reprinted the cabinet......it is taking forever for it to dry.  Tomorrow I will line it and arrange my new pots and pans.  I want my girls to know how much I appreciate their gift!  Hopefully tomorrow I will have the bottom cabinets complete!
     It's supposed to be cold tomorrow.  I kind of wasted today's beautiful weather working indoors!  It was 62 degrees out!   I need to go cut up one lemons or my aqua infuser.   I sure love that!   Well....I am going to relax and then off to bed early to watch Dexter.  Darn that Caroline for introducing that show to me!  Stinker!    
     Hopefully I will feel a little better in the morning....my legs, feet, and back have Ben killing me lately!  No pain, no gain!  Goodnight beautiful world!  See you in the morning!

Yesterday's post picture....

Not quite sure what happened to the picture but it was of my new scale with me on it showing the humiliating weight of 303.8.    I will try and get it back up.
     Today I am off to the vet to get the dogs nails clipped.  Always a hectic experience that I do not look forward to.  I painted some yesterday so today I feel like a Mac truck rolled over me.    I better get going but I will be back later to write.
     Enjoying my infused water.   Berry medley today.

And the truth, although ugly, shall set me free! 12-27-13

Well there is no denying just how fat I am....new scale does not lie!  I kind of felt sorry for it as I stepped up on it.  It gave a little "grunt" as I applied all of my weight.   Don't worry little scale, I promise this is the most weight you will ever have to bear and you will never see this number again.   Truth hurts but it also shall set me free!   Off to continue cleaning my cabinets!  One day I will show my girls this blog and on that day I truly hope they will be proud of my journey!

Christmas 2013 and beyond!

Yesterday was Christmas and as usual I used this holiday to overeat!  Oh, I really don't even need a holiday....just any old day will suffice!  Had a blast with my kids and grandkids!  Wish Mindy and John would come home though!  Got some terrific gifts and one I can really use!  Mindy and Vanessa got me a set of Paula Dean pots and pans!  I will have to NOT cook Paula style but instead try cooking weight watcher and biggest loser style with them!  They will make me happy to cook with!   I have never had a new set like this!  Caroline gave me a hydro infusion cup!   You put veggies or fruit at the bottom and it infuses the juice to your water!  I tries it this morning and even with old frozen fruit it was yummy so I can't wait to try fresh!!  I know without them even saying it, that they got me these things in hopes I will try to lose weight and become healthy.   I love them for caring so much about me!  My gift to them is going to be a new me!  One small step at a time and the first step being my attitude!  I swear i talk crappy about everyone!   Who does that?  I can tell. You who....someone who is very unhappy in their own skin and life.  So first step.....attitude.      Today I plan on throwing out the fudge and unhealthy crap and  then rearranging my cabinets to fit my beautiful new cookware!  Oh, did I mention it was red?  My favorite color!
      Once all of this is done, off to Hays to buy a new bathroom scale to see just how fat I really am and get fresh fruit/veggies for my infuser!   Chicken too!  For my new pans!    Well I am set........ready....set.......now go do it Lucy!!      This is my new and LAST start over!   Looking forward to the challenge!

GED nights might be the death of my diet plan.....

I do so well all day long and then I get home from GED classes and boom!  I think I'm hungry!  I, of course, am not... but last night I popped 2 100 cal bags and ate them!   oh... and sampled the mini meat loafs!   I mean REALLY LUCY!!!???  WTH?

I will try harder on Monday when I teach again.   Tonight I have a game after school so that should keep me occupied!   Brought my chicken taco bake to school today to eat.  I will have to only eat half and save half for tomorrow!   WILLpower!!!!

I will check back in again later!!!  DRINK DRINK DRINK!!!  (Water! haha)
Lucy

Lots of good food made for the week....

Why is it that I feel that I am eating more now?   I think I may have been starving my body before thus retaining all the fat.   Weird, but I know from my previous WW meetings that you MUST EAT to lose.  So, I am going to give eating a try!  Today I had egg whites for breakfast and  brought one of the meals I made last night for lunch!  It was rice, chicken, and FF Cream of Chicken soup.  YUMMO!

I did cheat once.... my para brought in ghost truffles left over from Halloween and before my mind could even THINK to say no... my hands and mouth had already devoured it.  Yes, it was yummy but I am a little sad I didn't think it through before popping it into my mouth!  At least I stopped at one.

I did wake up feeling better this morning.... my feet didn't hurt quite as bad.  Now I know I didn't lose anything in one day but maybe my mind is saying... see?  it hurts less if you try to eat healthy!  In any case... I was happy. 

I have to teach GED class tonight.  HATE having to go do that but I can't make it without that job.  I pay for Caroline's phone, car, car insurance, and sometimes help with rent.  It's no wonder I am poor.  Pretty much I am paying for 2 households.   I wish she would get a real job and pay for things herself.  Maybe one day...

Not much else to report!  I love my girls and my grandkids!!!  (yes, even Caroline who is sucking the money from me! haha)   Life is good so I need to make every day special!

(I need to figure out how to get pics on here!  ugh!)
Lucy

Me....cooking?

Or rather baking.  Today at school I poured myself over all the weight watchers recipes I have been pinning.....most I ad never tried. So I printed some off and came home to rummage through my cabinets and refrigerator to see if I had the ingredients for any of the recipes and I did!   I had all the ingredients to make the biggest loser mini turkey meatloaves!  So here they are:

Holy Moley, the truth hurts.... but don't they say.... It shall set you free? Hope so!

drum roll..... (and not a good one)........





BOOM!  There it is.  Fatter then I have been in a long long while.  I have no excuse other than I eat and eat and eat.   I don't drink my water.... instead I opt for more food.   No excuses.  Am I embarrassed?  Yes I am.   Am I ashamed?   Absolutely!   I can't even imagine what Jaci and Louden's friends will eventually say about their Nana!!!   and my poor daughters!  They LIVED that shame of me as a mother their entire life.   How selfish of me to make them hurt like that.  I know they did.  I know they longed for that beautiful mom who would go shopping with them...but no.. they got me.  Frumpy fat Lucy.  Wow.   Maybe my kids didn't feel like that... but that is how I would have felt!  Truth hurts!

So, today begins my lifelong journey.  No end date set this time because that just sets me up for failure.  my end date now will be the day they lay me to rest.   Hopefully, not for a long long time.

Just found out I am going to be a NANA again!   This time my oldest daughter Mindy is expecting!  So excited for her and John!  I love my grandkids to pieces and can't imagine how I even functioned in life without them before! haha

Well.... here goes nothing.   Picture of me from day one to follow today....



Lucy

November 2013.....and nothing has changed.

I need to get ack to blogging and writing down my food intake.  I love Notre Dame and all that it stands for so I changed my blog name to something positive and from my Irish (except I changed I up a bit!).....eat like a champion today!   What is mr positive then that?  Tomorrow I will go to the nurse's office and weigh myself on the "big scale" so I know I right.....and ten sadly with my head hanging low with shame, I will post it.   Tonight I will dream about all the positive changes I will ale in my life starting tomorrow morning......and take it one day at a time.  Till then.....sweet dreams cyber space.
Lucy 🙏