BOOM! There it is. Fatter then I have been in a long long while. I have no excuse other than I eat and eat and eat. I don't drink my water.... instead I opt for more food. No excuses. Am I embarrassed? Yes I am. Am I ashamed? Absolutely! I can't even imagine what Jaci and Louden's friends will eventually say about their Nana!!! and my poor daughters! They LIVED that shame of me as a mother their entire life. How selfish of me to make them hurt like that. I know they did. I know they longed for that beautiful mom who would go shopping with them...but no.. they got me. Frumpy fat Lucy. Wow. Maybe my kids didn't feel like that... but that is how I would have felt! Truth hurts!
So, today begins my lifelong journey. No end date set this time because that just sets me up for failure. my end date now will be the day they lay me to rest. Hopefully, not for a long long time.
Just found out I am going to be a NANA again! This time my oldest daughter Mindy is expecting! So excited for her and John! I love my grandkids to pieces and can't imagine how I even functioned in life without them before! haha
Well.... here goes nothing. Picture of me from day one to follow today....
Lucy
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