GED nights might be the death of my diet plan.....

I do so well all day long and then I get home from GED classes and boom!  I think I'm hungry!  I, of course, am not... but last night I popped 2 100 cal bags and ate them!   oh... and sampled the mini meat loafs!   I mean REALLY LUCY!!!???  WTH?

I will try harder on Monday when I teach again.   Tonight I have a game after school so that should keep me occupied!   Brought my chicken taco bake to school today to eat.  I will have to only eat half and save half for tomorrow!   WILLpower!!!!

I will check back in again later!!!  DRINK DRINK DRINK!!!  (Water! haha)
Lucy

Lots of good food made for the week....

Why is it that I feel that I am eating more now?   I think I may have been starving my body before thus retaining all the fat.   Weird, but I know from my previous WW meetings that you MUST EAT to lose.  So, I am going to give eating a try!  Today I had egg whites for breakfast and  brought one of the meals I made last night for lunch!  It was rice, chicken, and FF Cream of Chicken soup.  YUMMO!

I did cheat once.... my para brought in ghost truffles left over from Halloween and before my mind could even THINK to say no... my hands and mouth had already devoured it.  Yes, it was yummy but I am a little sad I didn't think it through before popping it into my mouth!  At least I stopped at one.

I did wake up feeling better this morning.... my feet didn't hurt quite as bad.  Now I know I didn't lose anything in one day but maybe my mind is saying... see?  it hurts less if you try to eat healthy!  In any case... I was happy. 

I have to teach GED class tonight.  HATE having to go do that but I can't make it without that job.  I pay for Caroline's phone, car, car insurance, and sometimes help with rent.  It's no wonder I am poor.  Pretty much I am paying for 2 households.   I wish she would get a real job and pay for things herself.  Maybe one day...

Not much else to report!  I love my girls and my grandkids!!!  (yes, even Caroline who is sucking the money from me! haha)   Life is good so I need to make every day special!

(I need to figure out how to get pics on here!  ugh!)
Lucy

Me....cooking?

Or rather baking.  Today at school I poured myself over all the weight watchers recipes I have been pinning.....most I ad never tried. So I printed some off and came home to rummage through my cabinets and refrigerator to see if I had the ingredients for any of the recipes and I did!   I had all the ingredients to make the biggest loser mini turkey meatloaves!  So here they are:

Holy Moley, the truth hurts.... but don't they say.... It shall set you free? Hope so!

drum roll..... (and not a good one)........





BOOM!  There it is.  Fatter then I have been in a long long while.  I have no excuse other than I eat and eat and eat.   I don't drink my water.... instead I opt for more food.   No excuses.  Am I embarrassed?  Yes I am.   Am I ashamed?   Absolutely!   I can't even imagine what Jaci and Louden's friends will eventually say about their Nana!!!   and my poor daughters!  They LIVED that shame of me as a mother their entire life.   How selfish of me to make them hurt like that.  I know they did.  I know they longed for that beautiful mom who would go shopping with them...but no.. they got me.  Frumpy fat Lucy.  Wow.   Maybe my kids didn't feel like that... but that is how I would have felt!  Truth hurts!

So, today begins my lifelong journey.  No end date set this time because that just sets me up for failure.  my end date now will be the day they lay me to rest.   Hopefully, not for a long long time.

Just found out I am going to be a NANA again!   This time my oldest daughter Mindy is expecting!  So excited for her and John!  I love my grandkids to pieces and can't imagine how I even functioned in life without them before! haha

Well.... here goes nothing.   Picture of me from day one to follow today....



Lucy

November 2013.....and nothing has changed.

I need to get ack to blogging and writing down my food intake.  I love Notre Dame and all that it stands for so I changed my blog name to something positive and from my Irish (except I changed I up a bit!).....eat like a champion today!   What is mr positive then that?  Tomorrow I will go to the nurse's office and weigh myself on the "big scale" so I know I right.....and ten sadly with my head hanging low with shame, I will post it.   Tonight I will dream about all the positive changes I will ale in my life starting tomorrow morning......and take it one day at a time.  Till then.....sweet dreams cyber space.
Lucy 🙏