That makes a total for January of 19.9 pounds GONE!!! Heck ya! Just missed the 20 pound mark but hey, I'll take what I got!!! I feel good about myself! I'm working really hard and I'm not going to let anybody put me down or make me feel bad about my success!!! I DID it and I'm DANG PROUD of myself!!! Oh, I have plenty more to go...but one day at a time...stay focused with my eye on the prize!!! a nice beautiful DRESS for my baby girl's wedding!!!!! I want her to be as proud of me as I am of her!!!
I was super excited when my youngest, Caroline, texted me with a 'way to go mom!" It made my day that she was proud of me! She told me the other day that 'remember...you will have plateaus....just don't give up!' She's a smart one! I know she would like to see me healthier!!!! Who wants a 'fat mom'? I feel bad that my girls were labelled as the ones who had the 'fat mom'. I wonder how many times they were embarrassed of me? I guess I didn't think of it because I've always just been there for them whenever they need me... but ya, I bet there were times they probably wish I wasn't around! I will make amends for that by becoming who I should have been all along! I have now been fat for over half my life and it SUCKS and it's time for the change!!!!
Vanessa brought Jaci in to see me at work last night!!! I love love love that little girl and her mama so darn much! It truly made my day! That's why I'm doing this .... for my 3 beautiful daughters and Jaci Lane!
Keep going!!!!!
I have been overweight for over half my life. The thin person inside of me is screaming to be let out but my obsession with food won't let it. This is my journey to become healthy again before it is too late.
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