Crazy week.... Valentine's day... I don't really enjoy it. I remember the last Valentine's Day I was married. I remember seeing (cuz I went hunting!) one of those big balloons with gifts inside hidden in a closet and I was really excited because I saw what was inside!!! I waited all day at school... ready to come home and be 'surprised!' My surprise was a card and my husband at the time saying... "sorry, i just got called and have to go to wichita to work". I gave him his gift and he gave me a quick hug. As he was about to drive off.. I ran out to the car and gave him $100 bill. I told him that since he wouldn't be home for me to fix him the supper I had planned that I wanted him to have a wonderful valentine's day dinner and not just eat fast food. Then he drove off. I could see "my balloon" in the back of the station wagon. I cried as he drove off.
Wow... this is the first time I've ever talked about this. That day broke me.
Then I had to relive the morning my father passed away. I wanted to just wake up normally and deal with it my way, but my sister texted me at 5:30 AM to remind me! Let me just say that a text at that time in the morning made my heart race just as the day I got the actual phone call. I wish she wouldn't have done that. It was a tough day.
Next, Caroline moved home. I'm happy to have the company!!!! BUT I don't want Vanessa to be upset with me for allowing her to move home. I don't think she will be .... I'm not choosing sides. I'm just going to be their "mother' and love them both. :)
well... I better get going to school or I'll be LATE!!! maybe tonight I will get some much needed housework done!!!
Stay focused Lucy!!! Lose Lose Lose!!!!!!
I have been overweight for over half my life. The thin person inside of me is screaming to be let out but my obsession with food won't let it. This is my journey to become healthy again before it is too late.
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