I have a lot of tension in my life at the moment and I fear it will sabatoge my efforts at losing weight so I thought it best if maybe I blogged to get some of it out of my system. Caroline has moved home which I LOVE. I can deal with her messes but I cannot deal with her little dog Toby. He is adorable but he pees everywhere and this is stressing me out. The other day he ran under my car and stayed there for 10 minutes while i pleaded with him to come out. I didn't want him to get run over. I was outside, no makeup, no bra, no shoes. by the time I got back in the house I was so tense that I ate chips. (baked chips but still....) I could feel my heart racing. When I get frustrated, I eat. It's my comfort. I think toby may be a sabotager.
Secondly, my para is way overstepping. Last friday, when I had a sub for ME, my PARA let MY SUB go at noon. WHAT????? what message is THAT sending to Mark???? Also, she spent the rest of the afternoon digging in my desk drawers. I am so upset. Good thing I have nothing to eat at school because I sure felt a food fest coming on!!!! AH!
other then that, I think I'm doing good this week. I just wish Caroline could see that Toby is not happy here and we are not happy with Toby here. the little guy deserves someone who is with him a lot more then we are.
well..... we'll see how I do today foodwise!
STAY STRONG Lucy!
oh...and idol kicked my kid with the long hair off. boo.
I have been overweight for over half my life. The thin person inside of me is screaming to be let out but my obsession with food won't let it. This is my journey to become healthy again before it is too late.
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