OMG Lucy! You HAVE to WANT this!

Spring break... .is breaking me!   I have laid around pretty much the entire week.   ... obviously not wanting this weight loss bad enough!  Yesterday I snuck a couple of HANDFULS of jelly beans.  I have big hands!  ugh!

Try harder today.  I am going to rake today so I will get in some exercise.  Soon it will be time to mow and with the shape I'm in now, it will be the death of me!  Every summer I tell myself, next year you will be thinner so it will be easier.  Guess what?  Next year is hear and I am just as fat or even fatter.  ugh again!   Now I'm sounding like a whiner!  I guess I kind of am a whiner!  Time to face the mirror and the lawn and grow the hell up.  Life is escaping me and I refuse to let that happen any longer! 

Have my oatmeal in the microwave.  For lunch today I will have a shake and some fruit for snack.  I am eating all the right things now (except for the jelly beans) but I am eating too much of it.  Portion control.  Water.   I also need to get my water in.   It's so much easier away from home but I need to get it under control now because summer break is coming quickly!!!


Alright, it's time to start the day.  Miley's meds are in and the microwave just dinged letting me know my oatmeal is ready.

Praying to God for strength today.

I did it... well kinda...

Made it to the Q yesterday with my friend Pat (and Vanessa, Caroline, and Nick) AND did NOT order a Q burger!  I ordered the salad.  I do love their salads!  But I did manage to throw in a couple of tator tots off of Caroline's plate - fail.  But only a couple!  Baby steps!

Today I take Miss Miley in to have her teeth cleaned.  Hopefully this will take care of the awful odor of her breath.  I really do not have the money to do this but it's so sad that her little teeth hurt and she just remains happy happy happy.  So yes, I will find the money and get it done for her.  I know I too have at least 2 broken teeth with cavities... but I will just have to wait.  I feel bad for not getting this done sooner for her.

I've had my oatmeal this morning....blueberry.  I am truly beginning to love oatmeal.  I bought a spaghetti squash yesterday so I am going to give that a try tonight!  Hope I love it!

Short post today but I got a million things to do and I need to have Miley there by 9...30 minutes from now and I am still in my jammies!  oops!

Off I go to start another glorious day!

Pictures can be deceiving....

While at school, the junior high kids were like "Ms. B!  We want a picture with you!" This was at their junior high dance.  So I posed with them for a picture.   I have had more compliments on this picture.  People tell me they had to look twice to find me amongst the junior high students, that I look so young and have I lost weight?!  Well, I was excited because it really is a decent picture... Here it is....

That's me... the second from the left (front and center).  Needless to say I was feeling pretty good about myself.   But as they say... pictures can be deceiving.   When I went home and looked in a mirror, this is what I saw....

Yep, me on the left.  True picture of how large I am.  BUT....knowing I CAN look like the deceiving picture above is making me want it more.   Why can't I "fit in" with a group of junior high students?  I don't have to be the fattest teacher at school!  Right!?!  Yep!

Today my friend, Pat is coming to town.  She wants to eat at the Q.  I will forego the infamous Q burger for the salad.  Not a great choice there, but better then the Q burger.  :)   I am super excited to see Pat.  It's been a while and she has really been such a great friend to me.  She saw me through the cheating and the divorce.   She never judges.   Love her to death!

Going to quick tidy up the house, have my morning oatmeal, take a shower, and get ready for some fun.  Here is to another day on this beautiful earth!  I will show my appreciation...  oh, and Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!!   

Boom! Let the weight loss fun commence!

 

 

First day of Spring Break 2014.  Still fat.  Who is to blame?  ME

 

 

Anyway, here is the ugly truth.  I gained back 4 of the 11 pounds I had lost.  Today I try again.  My motto is :Never give up.  If you don't start something, then you can never succeed at it.

 

 



Blog name change....and reasons why!

I officially changed the name of my blog from "Obese to healthy, my journey" to "Ooh La La".  There are many reasons for this change.   Here they are:

1.  First of all, I once again QUIT my obese to healthy blog.   I needed a new start.
2.

  Here would be reason number 2. (and maybe number 1)      I attendeded
Jaci's dance competition in OKC last weekend.   While there, she and the sassy little gal pictured with her took top honors (double diamonds) for their duet "Ooh La La".    Meanwhile, this fat Nana sat in the audience prouder then a peacock.       Then humility set in when I had to actually get up and squeeze my fat self in front of a family of 4 to get in and out.   I would have expected them to get up to let me pass, but nope... they let me squeeze by.  I was so embarrassed!
 

 

3.  I went with the family to eat with my family while in Wichita (same weekend).  Well we went to a swanky bar but the stools were high and I was afraid to sit on them for fear I would break one.  Very uncomfortable feeling, and not to mention that my legs fall asleep on tall chairs because I am so short.  Secondly, we ate out again at Red Robin for my first time.   After waiting half an hour we were finally seated... only to find out it was a booth.  Well I squeezed myself in, my boobs and stomach resting nicely on TOP of the table.   My pregnant daughter Mindys said she could not sit in the booth so the lady was going to move us to another table.  I know everyone in the place watched in horror as I tried to wedge my way back out.  VERY HUMILIATING AND EMBARRASSING not only for me, but I could see the shame on my girls (and Jaci's) face. 

 

4.  So today, new start AGAIN.  but hey, if I never start, then I will never succeed right?!   My plan is to post my weight once a week and journal my food and thoughts DAILY!    

 

 

And for anyone reading this blog... can you tell me why it is underlining EVERYTHING?  ugh!  My underline button is not on!

 

 

Here is to another try!  Please God, let this be the last time!