It's time .....

I've been totally dreading this day but it's time I quit playing the "oh I don't weight that much game". Face it. I'm fat. I think I'm hiding my true weight from my girls by just not telling them how fat I really am but c'mon, they are not idiots and they have to have a pretty good idea of how much I weigh... I mean when your daughter has to explain you to someone as "she is a bigger lady".... well I know what I am talking about when I say someone is a bigger lady so hey Lucy...face facts and reality.....YOU ARE THAT BIGGER LADY!!! So, today here on my blog (and I know you 3 girls read this from time to time) I am going to be TRUTHFUL and actually post my current weight. Am I ashamed? Yes I am. Am I going to crawl in a hole and die? NO I am not. I am going to DO something about it. Once it is out there....there is no taking it back. So here it is... in black and white (well actually in a cute picture form because it makes me feel a LITTLE better about posting it).... my weight...

There it is.... FAT... no not fat.. OBESE. I can do this and I want to do this. I have a goal set for Mindy's wedding which is 5 pounds a week. That would bring me to my goal of 204. That isn't my end goal..just my goal for her wedding. It may not be doable but I'm really going to give it my best try. My girls deserve a healthier mom and little Jaci deserves a Nana who can run and play with her.

This was probably the hardest thing I've done in a long time. I've never actually put my weight out there for anyone to see.... it's hard admitting it.... but I also feel a little at peace knowing I'm not hiding anymore.

Please God, give me the strength today to follow plan and not cheat. and please Bless the Jacques family because it was a couple years ago today they lost a really great man, John.

Lucy